The saying "A big fish in a small pond" means that I might think I am a big deal out in the world but my influence is actually quite small. In other words, in spite of what I might think about myself, the reality is that I may only impact the small fish in my own small pond.
I think deep down most of us want to feel that we are important to people, or at least a certain group of people. We want to know we matter. We want to know we are relevant. It is quite painful to admit that perhaps we only matter to a few loved ones, if even that.
The culture does not help. It is tough to be as popular as the culture demands. We constantly see people in the spot light and often not for honorable reasons. Or, some so called "stars" are just good at promoting themselves and elevating themselves to stardom.
Charles Bukowski in his poem titled, "The Secret" says that "nobody has the strange and hidden power, nobody is exceptional or wonderful or magic, they only seem to be." He goes on to imply that it is all a show and an illusion.
Perhaps I am uncomfortable that I have not rocked my world. I often feel irrelevant and that I have not even rocked the small world
Only once in a while, a big fish enters the small world of my life, and provides a special kind of solitary solace.
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