I Dropped Out Of Social Media: Do I Still Exist?

I dropped out of social media for a while. Do I still exist?

It is a strange illusion. Did I really think I could exist by posting my thoughts and pictures on line?

Sometimes things happen in life that challenge my sense of self and those old questions nag me; Who am I? Do I truly exist?  Do I truly belong?

Since I was a child fly fishing has helped me with these existential concerns. Even now when some of  the people I loved are no longer here, and I feel lost,  returning to the river can ease my pain helping me regain who I am.

As the poet Rilke says, "And if the earthly no longer knows your name, whisper to the silent earth: I'm flowing. To the flashing water say: I am." 

I stand in the river casting in the flowing, flashing river and I remember him.

I whisper, I still am. I still exist.